vulnerable.
i‘m open to the world. i want to explore and journey on a path towards greatness. i try to impress and be the best i can be. its hard when i have to fill my schedule up with constant work to prevent my sadness and pain to seep in. the world is shut out when i am focused. when i am alone with my thoughts, i am weak, scared and paranoid. what can i do? in a life that is so short, we are not made to be working and working. but i can’t take a break. i must keep going. the minute i stop is the minute the world crashes down on me. i am exhausted, tired and hanging on my last limb. my mind controls me, haunts me and lets me know the work is never done. i measure myself by my productivity. i have to keep going. the minute i slack is another minute that ends. thinking about my years on this earth, i have been constantly working. trying to shut out my thoughts. when i am alone, i am screaming, crying and wondering where did i go wrong. i try to not let the world get to me, my mind is poisoning me, its not worth it. i yearn for simpler times. i yearn for the time the world and my thoughts ease. a moment i can truly be happy and without pain. a time to be free.
