invisible.

the rain pours down on a cloudy night. the trickling of the raindrops continuing to pan against the window pane. i look outside and wonder how did i get here? this beautiful, independent and confusing thing called life. what is life and what does it mean to feel alive? through my two eyes, ears and senses, i see the world in front of me continuing to pass by. time continues to feel lost even though it is merely a creation. the ticking of the clock makes me feel as though i’m not moving fast enough. in the span of 70 to 80 years, who will i be? in this vast world i have not even began to touch and discover, i want to feel alive. i want to feel more than a feeling. i want to feel more than just a sight, a memory. i want to feel alive. i want to be the one that has full control of my life. being trapped behind bars of my mind and societal norms that make me feel as though i am limited in my abilities. i am a woman. i am lightskin. merely seeing my physical traits individuals are able to assume who and what i am. no one knows me but me. not even myself knows me. i think i know me but i think i am confused. who am i? what is this world i am living in. in a floating rock saturated in water and floating land masses, where do i fit in? as the time continues to tick by, i want to discover myself. i want to break out of the shackles i call my mind and this world. i am not limited. i am free in mind, body and spirit. join me on the journey to self-discovery. join me on the journey to shining light on the invisible spirit and soul we call ourselves. i may be invisible now but my light will shine much longer than my time in this world.